I have no one to talk to.
Despite having a wonderful best friend named Cara, I still feel entirely alone. There isn't that one person who I think about when I wake up in the morning, and who I want to stay up for when I should be going to bed at night.
There isn't that one person who I'd call in the middle of the night just because. And they wouldn't be mad at all...well maybe a little.

There almost is that person, but I shouldn't waste my time on her. I don't want to be friends with her because it kills me... I want so much more. She's worthless though... So why do I let myself think about her as much as I do?

Am I an idiot?

I don't know...

I feel so alone all of the time.

There's nothing bad in my life.. So why do I always feel crappy?
Am I stupid?

Do I have the right to feel the way I do? Because I don't think I do... But I can't seem to fix it.

I just want someone who loves me, and who I love. Even if I'm only 15 and it's a stupid thing to wish for. I don't want sex, I don't want lust, I don't even care if it's a romantic relationship. I just need someone...



I realize this is an absolutely ridiculous place to write this, but I have no where else.

I feel all mixed up and I don't know why. I feel like I don't matter to anyone aside from family, which isn't the same.

I doubt anyone will bother reading this, but if you do, please comment or something. It would make me smile.